otaku_emmy said:
You know what's weird? As much as I fucking love men, I never could manage to imagine/create an original man face in my head. It just doesn't work. That's why me fantasizing doesn't work.
That's not weird, 20 years ago I could have totally related with you. But it's a different world for me now, anime fantasy is my life, and I'm to shy to start a another human relationship. I rarely have an organism, but I can spend 20 hours creating an image of a nude Eclair and have a massive hard on throughout the entire process.

Then I just fall asleep and dream.